Fox, I appreciate your honesty. I'm one of the few who defended you tooth and nail when people would rag on you in the past, so other than this current issue, I have nothing against you. Granted, this is pretty major and VERY disappointing...
Anyway, it takes guts to come clean the way you did. And even though you're banned here (as well you should be), I hope that you can someday clear your reputation within the UrT community. It'll take a long time, but stick with it and stay true to who you are. 1up isn't ever gonna be very accepting, but I'm sure there are other reputable communities that would welcome you after you've proven yourself to be worthy... if you ever can.
Good luck. Live well and hack not.